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wala lang. ayoko na dito. 

Engagement Anyone?

Well, in my age, the next big step after graduating from college and finding a job would be marrying… then having a family… 

The marriage thought got me thinking… How much would engagement rings and other jewelries cost? haha.. I mean, i’m not planning to marry anyone just yet.. I’m actually not even in a relationship now.. It’s just that having to buy some rocks would be expensive.. I mean i looked for diamonds and i found a .55 carat heart shaped diamond, which is about 5.2mm, and it costs about $2k dollars. I mean i think it’s relatively cheap for a heart shaped diamond, but well.. I really don’t know anything about those things. haha.. But if you’re one ‘em cheap guys, there also rings which cost from $4-$500 and they actually look quite decent. Just don’t let your girl know you’re buying her one of those fake ones. LOL. 

 Oh well. but as they all say, the important thing is the love that you’ll both be sharing after the marriage and not the material things you’ll be having… But if you can have a gigantic rock, why not right? hehe 

Text From Last Night

Remember those nights that you were really drunk? When you woke up, almost everything you did the last night needs to be retold for you to remember them? hahaha.. well, some of the things you were saying may have been sent through texts. haha.. 

textsfromlastnight offers you different messages from different people around.. i don’t know where really.. maybe the world. haha.. it’s really hilarious.. It gets your mind off things. Quite addictive actually. hahaha.. oh well. just click the link.. 

Job Hunting

So i kinda have  a job offer here in davao…. But the pay’s really not what i expected… How i wish it was a good surprise, but hell it wasn’t. The salary’s way too low… really low.. lower than my lowest expected salary. I really don’t know if i should go back to manila already.. I would want to but what if it’ll take me a really long time before i’ll be able to find a job? and it’s not like living in manila is cheap and i don’t think i’ll be able to live cheap in manila.. All the temptations.. The food.. The malls.. The parties.. oh fu…dge! haha..I shouldn’t have left manila in the first place.. oh well.. but i really feel that i’m running out of time… HELP!

Stop with the negativity!

Haha.. So yeah.. I think i should already stop with all this negativity. I am now very much eager to start working and to once again, start my job hunt. though i am still in davao, i’ll still make the best out of it. If by September, i still won’t be able to find a job related to my field, i think that will be the time i’ll go back to manila. For now, i already have lots of mini-jobs in mind. A lot of freelance offers are on my plate right now. So i guess i should really just do it. I will find a job, and a good one at that.  

Blood and Connections

There are times that i wish that i was born rich.. Be one of them heirs of big companies and massive areas of land. Not having problems in the future and always getting to live life to its moment not having any worries or woes. Get to be where i want to be and have every possible opportunity at a snap of my fingers. Some of you reading this might say that i am lazy.. Someone who wants to live life the easy way.. oh well. but that’s life.. and these are one of my lapses. 

Again and Again.

i feel shitty these days. Still don’t have a job.. Still don’t have any direction in life. I wonder when i’ll start working? i actually plan to work for about a year or two.. then after that i would get a scholarship in photography, maybe new york or singapore. Gawd.. How i wish it were that easy. I just want to achieve something. I really feel that I haven’t been able to achieve anything. Even my college degree just seems as if it’s a joke.

I’m actually recalling one of the exams i took for a job.. actually, all the exams that i recently took for a job, i can honestly say that i didn’t do my best in all of them. I actually gave up before i even started answering the exam. When i tried to answer the exams, there was this nostalgic feeling that didn’t excite me at all whenever i’d try to program.. But this is one of the ways that i can earn money… and i still don’t know any other way aside from it. 

Maybe

I’m now in manila.. and i’m still not looking for a job. haha.. sort of not looking for one because i’m still going back to davao, which actually hinders me from submitting my applications fully to all the companies that i know of here in manila. I actually don’t know if Computer Science is really the course that i should’ve taken. Now, i’m very much happy not having to program anything. It’s like I really can’t imagine myself doing behind the desk jobs my whole life… But like what i said in my previous posts, this is actually my most visible stepping stone. 

On the lighter side of my life, i’m now addicted to cinnamon swirls of starbucks. Which only cost 55 pesos.. and it’s really good! almost cinnabon like.. I’m craving for one now… yumm!!!!! 

not getting there

i’m still not getting to where i want to be… gawd. 

i felt really stupid a while ago.. I wasted an opportunity. no good.. no good at all!

I’m pissed with myself. errr!! 

Internet-ing

Ok. I have lots of things to do.. But procrastinating is already a hobby. LOL. yeah. i know.. I’m trying to change that. 

Since I’ve been procrastinating for over a month now, i’m reading blogs of other people… Even blogs of strangers. haha.. I also re-read my blog.. and i actually found an emo-themed post that I can’t remember for whom i wrote it to. So.. Yeah. It supports my conclusion that I can easily move on. Which is good.. in some ways.. hehe..

I’m also just on facebook. As we all know, facebook is a bored-person’s friend. So yes! thank you facebook… and yes, friendster is already very, very, very, very lame. haha

 Gawd! i don’t have anything to write about.. Oh.. lemme tell you about my day. So i went out with my mom.. We were looking for shoes for her maid-of-honor thing.  We saw lots of cute ones. But she was still undecided on what to buy. She even told me earlier that she wants to have her still unfinished dress re-done. LOL. oh well… Because of my mom’s finicky attitude towards the shoes i got bored telling her that what she tried on already looked nice.. So i went-on looking for clothes — for myself this time. Hehe.. and i found a nice shirt (?) i really don’t know if it’s a shirt or a jacket.. or something. It’s just really simple and it was 50% off! haha.. so i had my mom buy it.. and she got pissed because i already have lots of clothes bla bla bla.. and i really think that she got pissed was that she wasn’t able to buy anything and i got to buy something. haha.. 

Well, that’s my day. *bow*