Shocking

I just found out my highschool batchmate, Kris Hipolito, a big, cheerful, loud, gay guy killed himself this morning. They say he died from overdose of morphine.

I really wasn’t close to him. I don’t think we can consider ourselves as friends. I remembered only talking to him once and i asking him if he wore eyeliner everyday and i actually could not remember his answer. Everytime i would see him in school, he had always been cheerful, really loud and he had a fan with him everywhere he went. The news of him killing himself shocked everyone. Well, i just found out that it was already his third attempt to kill himself, well this time he succeeded. He always wanted to look emo, well, maybe he was really emo… They said he killed himself because of depression. 

It just saddens me that there are really people who cannot see through one problem and see that after that problem, there will always be something better. I mean, it’s such a waste… He’s such a waste. His life could’ve been something good. He could’ve experienced better, joyful, happy things.  Maybe he could’ve been a hero, now we’ll never know.

It also makes me mad how selfish some people are who only think about themselves. Selfish because they don’t think about the people they’ll leave behind. How much suffering and pain they will go through… His parents, his friends… All the people who care about him. 

Oh well.. What’s done is done. I don’t know why i’m so affected… I’m actually feeling sad and confused. I hope he’s happy where ever he is right now. I’m just going to pray for his soul and his family. 

Camera

Me and my sister went to my cousin’s house last night. We went there to get my niece’s pictures (because my cousin was the official photographer) and for him to teach me things about photography. My cousin owns a nikon d80 and i own a canon eos 40d. So it’s once again canon vs. nikon. Oh well.. I think canon lost according to my tastes. huhuhu

Nikon cameras are very user-friendly, it was my pseudo first time using a nikon (the real first time i used a nikon was not really that accountable, because i still had no idea whatsoever about the camera and it’s settings) and it felt really right in my hands. The body is lighter and it’s kit lens is has better range than the kit lens of my camera (nikon :18-135mm, canon : 18-55mm, but the canon lens has IS though). I was only able to use it for about 10 mins. It was only a short time.. but i don’t know.. it really felt better on my hands.. 

I need a break… (*taking-a-break* —>  *took-a-break* —> break’s over.) 

Err.. I’m trying to convince myself that both cameras are almost the same. That it’s the indian and not the pana. Hmmm.. Somehow, i’m starting to feel better. haha.. (It took me a longer time of convincing than writing this post). Oh well, a friend told me that i should be thankful that i even have a camera to shoot with. I guess he’s right.