When will i find you?

I can say that i haven’t been really searching.. but i’ve always been always hoping to find you.. I’ve always wondered what you’ll look like, how you’ll talk, what your interests are, and what are the things that will make you laugh.. I’ve always been wondering if how our story would start and especially how it would never end..

 With a bit of alcohol in my head, I’m writing this for you.. For you whom i’ll be happy with. For you whom my heart will beat faster as I lean towards you… To kiss your lips and feel your lips touching against mine. For you whom our first kiss i’ll never forget.This is for you whom i’ll always anticipate and count the seconds ’till our next meeting.. For you whom i’ll go wherever the wind will take us.. For you whom i’ll defy all the odds and be strong enough to know that whatever may happen, i’ll always find my solitude in you.

So when will i find you?

When will you let me see your face?

When will you tell me your name?

*las-lasan na to! emo. LOL.*

Extra bored, extra fun!

I was extra bored today… I really didn’t have anything to do.. I think.. Well, i always have a lot of things to do.. But as usual, my procrastinating self procrastinated. LOL!! Because i really couldn’t find anything to do, i googled “things to do when bored” (yes, google almost has all the answers) and a long list of sites were listed.

Most sites mentioned things I can do, like using your secret mind powers (this isn’t new for me, i always do this. hehe), scratch yourself, and a lot more. but my favorite was trying to swallow my tongue.. It really was fun for about a minute or two.. hehe.. The good thing about this site is that it also mentions the “Amusement Potential”. The “Amusement Potential” gives the time that you will be amused by their things to do. hehe.. (you can visit their website here.)

Another website which i found fun was this site. I won’t mention it’s URL because the name itself is funny. hehe.. In this website i found a game called “Unfair Traps”. This game is frustratingly fun!! hehe.. frustantingly fun because well, you should find out for yourself. To play the game, click here.

PS. I already finished all the levels of the Unfair Traps, just leave a comment if you want me to give you the passwords.

engliS llitS

I’ve been single for more than 8 months now. I currently don’t have any prospects… And i don’t think i’ll be having any soon… Still haven’t met the person that makes my heart flutter and makes my mind fly to thoughts so sweet and icky that hearing about these thoughts will make a person puke (puke a.k.a. vomit, not the tagalog word ok? haha).. Well, i did meet some, but as they say shit happens… karma happens would also be applicable. LOL!

Nowadays, looking my best is not a necessity anymore.. before, i would dress nicely in hopes that i would find someone who’ll notice me and someone who i’ll want to notice back. LOL! hehe.. Now, i really don’t think about it that much. I think i’ve already given up on the thought that i’d find someone here in eLBi.. I guess this place is too small… I wouldn’t like to see my my future ex all the time i guess. hahaha..

There are times when i would feel envious about people finding love here in eLBi… It’s so easy to be with your girflfriend/boyfriend/girlfriend AND boyfriend (whichever is applicable). You can be together everyday if you want to.. You can live in the same apartment(he/she rents his/her own place, but he/she lives at yours)..Your bf/gf is even your own assistant/runner/study-partner/cook/labandero/labandera… Yes, in other words, kulang nlng pari at kasal na kau. hahaha..

The moments that really makes me want to have a relationship is when everyone around me is in one. It’s so much harder to invite people who are in a relationship for lunches and dinners… They would always have plans with their hubbies/babies/beehs/whatevers. And i really don’t want the feeling of being the third wheel. It just makes me uncomfortable i guess.

Well, in conclusion, i don’t think i’ll really be finding anyone here in eLBi with my current routine. I don’t go out that much anymore. I usually just stay home. So if that person won’t come knocking at my door (literally), well, i certainly won’t find that person. LOL. hehe

College Friends

I miss my old college gimik friends.. My IC’s friends… Before whenever i would enter the bar, i would be greeted by lots of familiar and friendly faces.. Now, whenever i would go there (which is rarely nowadays) I only know the people i’m with. All the faces that i see are unfamiliar.. Well, some are familiar, but i barely know those people… I miss my ComArts friends, GeneSoc friends, and of course the UPLB Anno….

 I’m chatting with someone on ym now… I told him about how much i miss my old college friends.  He told me that he also misses his college friends.. and he suprisingly mentioned that he feels that the time he spent with his friends was just a waste of time. He said that because he rarely sees them and the only communication they have is through text or YM… Which got me thinking… It would be harder for me to see my college friends… People studying here come from different places, which means that after graduation, the deviance of the places where we will be working would be greater. Is it really going to be just a waste spending so much time with my college friends and knowing that after graduation, it would be really hard for us to see each other? Uhm… I really don’t think so… I guess without them, my college life would have been hell. 

I’m very happy with the people that i’m always with right now.. It’s just i miss the old faces of the people that i got to know and spent so much time with..