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If you’ve been reading my last posts, well, you can tell that i don’t feel too good about myself these days… I actually keep on repeating the line “I wanna die!”… Yeah, i really do… but i would like to be resurrected once all this is over. LOL!

Whenever i would say that line, i would think of my situtation and how it is not so much “to die for”… I mean, yeah.. I’m in deep shit.. but still, shit.. Not the ones that have been flushed… Meaning, i can still get out of it, or wait for it to decompose.. If it would’ve been flushed, i would be so totally lost in the sewers.. With a whole lot of other gross things other than shit. So for now, i’m just in shit.

To make it more relateable, there are a lot of other people who have problems bigger than mine.. Yet they manage to live through it.. Come to think of it, my problem’s not that big.. Compared to their problems my problems aren’t big at all..

 Maybe it’s just i keep on disappointing myself.. That’s why i’m feeling this way.. And the fact that i know that i’ll disappoint my parents too…

:(

oh well… These are the consequences for me procrastinating and being lazy all the time.. The consequences for always choosing to sleep rather than going to classes.. 

just thinking out loud…

I know what my problem is… I think too much about the future that I can’t concentrate on the now… I’m always worried about my future, that the now doesn’t get that much attention. Stupid… I know.. 

 Well, my now is spent lying down… I have some things to do.. Lots of things to do actually, but i want to give myself this time to not do anything… I had 2 exams yesterday, and i had 1 today…

 :( i’m really feeling down… i feel that all my subjects are in the verge of failing.. a 3 would give me so much joy and happiness…