I have been lost for the past few days.. I really don’t know what i want. My understanding of how the world works doesn’t seem to be in its proper places… A lot of cards that i thought i have are aces, but they are actually just jokers. *sigh*
My positive outlook of my post-graduation life is slowly dwindling. I actually just realized how unhappy i would be when i’ll start working.. and the worst part is.. I’m actually still not working. I hope these are just false expectations.. I really do hope that i would get to love the job that i would be getting into.
It’s kinda weird because this semester i have been really looking forward to graduate.. but now, i’m not. I mean i still am.. But the unsure future is just getting to me… The expectations… from my parents, my family.. and most especially from myself.