Blood and Connections

There are times that i wish that i was born rich.. Be one of them heirs of big companies and massive areas of land. Not having problems in the future and always getting to live life to its moment not having any worries or woes. Get to be where i want to be and have every possible opportunity at a snap of my fingers. Some of you reading this might say that i am lazy.. Someone who wants to live life the easy way.. oh well. but that’s life.. and these are one of my lapses. 

Again and Again.

i feel shitty these days. Still don’t have a job.. Still don’t have any direction in life. I wonder when i’ll start working? i actually plan to work for about a year or two.. then after that i would get a scholarship in photography, maybe new york or singapore. Gawd.. How i wish it were that easy. I just want to achieve something. I really feel that I haven’t been able to achieve anything. Even my college degree just seems as if it’s a joke.

I’m actually recalling one of the exams i took for a job.. actually, all the exams that i recently took for a job, i can honestly say that i didn’t do my best in all of them. I actually gave up before i even started answering the exam. When i tried to answer the exams, there was this nostalgic feeling that didn’t excite me at all whenever i’d try to program.. But this is one of the ways that i can earn money… and i still don’t know any other way aside from it.