Again and Again.

i feel shitty these days. Still don’t have a job.. Still don’t have any direction in life. I wonder when i’ll start working? i actually plan to work for about a year or two.. then after that i would get a scholarship in photography, maybe new york or singapore. Gawd.. How i wish it were that easy. I just want to achieve something. I really feel that I haven’t been able to achieve anything. Even my college degree just seems as if it’s a joke.

I’m actually recalling one of the exams i took for a job.. actually, all the exams that i recently took for a job, i can honestly say that i didn’t do my best in all of them. I actually gave up before i even started answering the exam. When i tried to answer the exams, there was this nostalgic feeling that didn’t excite me at all whenever i’d try to program.. But this is one of the ways that i can earn money… and i still don’t know any other way aside from it.